The Disease that changed the Whole Me!

What do you do when suddenly out of nowhere you receive the news of being ill. It’s as if your whole world collides in a single collision causing you to disassemble yourself. This exactly what happened to me when I realised that I have PCOS and after 2 years I learnt that I suffer from anxiety. 

My world was already collapsing when I heard news or saw my symptoms as I’m a doctor in making so I correlated my symptoms with the disease most of the time. Until I took lab tests and read my dreadful diagnosis. 

This disease PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Disease) , for a girl is actually a curse rather than anything you want to call it. In PCOS, small ovarian cysts develop and there develops the hormonal imbalance. Signs and symptoms of hyperandrogenism develops and females ultimately becomes infertile. 

I first of all developed irregular menstruation as my symptom, as delayed and more painful periods. My Mom would think that it’s because of my stress that I’m having late periods but in the end I manifested PCOS. Then I developed painful bout of cystic acne and ultimately I started seeing my full balls of hair coming out during my shower as big as a size of a tennis ball. I started feeling bald and the worst of all I started feeling depressed and not only this disease changed my outlook towards people, it changed my vision towards myself as well. 

In other words, having suffered from this disease gave me a life long never ending suffering. This PCOS most of the times is lifestyle induced and has a long term complications such as people become more susceptible to Type 2 Diabetes Mellitus. I don’t exactly make excuses of why or how I developed this disease as I knew 100% of the times that I had very bad lifestyle habits since when it happened. 

In my blog I won’t be writing about what are signs or symptoms of it or how exactly is pathogenesis of this disease PCOS as there are already numerous articles regarding this disease on internet. But I would really like to emphasise on how it affected me in these years. 

Unfortunately having it only gave me depression. I clearly don’t feel healthy anymore and it hurts. I’ve tried numerous healthy alternatives to control this disease but somehow I’ve always ended up taking Hormonal contraceptives in these 3 years. But I still am not going to give up on myself. Hence, I’m trying. Today My diet has become more healthier than ever and my daily routine does contain some healthy DIYs that might help my symptoms. I’m in my young adulthood & This PCOS is growing with me. I really hope I someday can find out the permanent relief If not permanent, I can still find some remedy. I really wish. 

 

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~ So What happens ~

So what happens when you start thinking about how people affect you. When some humans try to molest your thoughts & actions. You eventually tend to restrict harder and harder which gets even worse than that.

So what happens When you start acknowledging the fact that you might be stronger than you think. The whole world starts collapsing when you learn that you can deal with each and every problem no matter how perturbing they can be. Finally know how it is affecting you.

So what happens when you learn that you love someone, deeply enough that you can drown yourself in the love. More you realize that, More you fall in love. And when it’s time to let go, you can’t seem to do it. The person becomes your only universe. So how it feels.

When the right time comes even in your darkest hours, You seem to have that light even your own silhouette is afraid of. The imperfections, The restrictions, The realizations that’s what make your life worth living for. So what is going to happen when You will find the New You When you won’t have enough space for those faults. What will your life be when You will be perfect in this imperfect world.

When life is throwing some thorns at us, why can’t we pick roses in return. 

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Review Of Keya Seth Clear off face pack

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Hello My dear readers, Today I wanted to discuss a review on a product called Keya Seth Clear Off Anti Pimple Face Pack. I found this brand Keya Seth from internet while I was searching for some good affordable alternatives for my skin care. 

Here is The site Keya Seth

While browsing through the website I found out that Keya Seth is an internationally acclaimed Aromatherapist and she has created her products for numerous problems we have & which can easily be treated with aromatherapy. You can learn more about her in the link I’ve provided. 

Key Ingredients & claims: 

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What it did for me: As you can see; I’ve also suffered from cystic acne through which many people can relate me with. Hence, I naturally had to buy this Keya Seth Clear off face pack from the site. When I opened the packaging. I found out that it comes in a powder form and I’ve to mix it with the solution they have provided. Obviously the solution they have provided is to be used in a quantity equal to 2 -3 drops. To make it a paste form, then I add some water. I usually apply it on my affected part but some times I apply it on my whole face too. Then after keeping it for 20 min, I rinse it off. This pack only tingles a bit but this doesn’t mean that it’s a reaction. It claims to be used only for acne and it’s pigmentation, I usually use it on my face only and most of the times as a spot treatment. Now does this work, I would say that Yes; It definitely works. In fact I have an added tip for people with cystic acne; the acne which is actually very deep beneath the skin. When making the paste just add a pinch of salt in it. The pimple will tingle a lot and you will feel like it’s better to wash it off. But if you can handle this, then you’ll 100% enjoy the after effects. IT works like a charm for those acne while making them less inflamed and ultimately less painful. So, I’ll give it exactly 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 (5hearts). it’s 100%effective. 

If you guys would want to try IT, then do buy it from the website. Keya seth

Positive Points: true to it’s claims, affordable; herbal. 

Negative points: not easily accessible, had to buy from their website.

Thank you guys for reading. Will see you soon ♡ 

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Review of Himalaya Herbals Dryness Defense Protein Shampoo

Hello my fellow readers;  Today I would like to review a hair care product from a brand called Himalaya Herbals. 

As you people know from my very first blog post that I suffer from PCOS as well as anxiety. Because of which I tend to suffer from hairfall or even dry hair. Personally I love this brand so much that when I found out that they have opened their store in my locality, I was spellbound. I got so excited and purchased so many goodies that I became a member and now I almost always have benefits being their member. 😜

okay now to the topic, The hair care product I’ll be reviewing is Himalaya Herbals Dryness Defense Protein  Shampoo. 

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My take on the shampoo: This product claims to combat dryness and makes them silky soft. when I wash my hair I premassaģe my hair with my DIY Hair oil and keep it on overnight. The next day, I’ll wash my hair with this shampoo.

This shampoo lathers very well. My hair feels clean every time I use this shampoo. Being herbal (actually not so herbal) it should make my hair dry but my hair becomes silky soft whenever I use this shampoo. As I also suffer from dry wavy hair, I always have to use a conditioner along with it. So, my hair becomes very soft. It does stand on my expectations. I 100% recommend this shampoo for people with dry hair. 

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Pros: easily affordable; easily availability; True to it’s claims; makes hair silky soft. 

Cons: it still has some chemicals. 

I’ll give it 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 (5 hearts) I love it so much…  You can buy the product from these sites too Nykaa, Amazon

Review of Nivea Total Face Clean Up

 

Hello my dear friends, Today I would like to review a product from the brand Nivea called Total Face Clean Up which is meant for oily acne prone skin.

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My take on the product: As you people might know that I suffer from Painful adult cystic acne and I have to consistently follow a routine to either prevent them from occuring or cure them  before they become exaggerating for me.

So during the process of finding good products that might work for me I came across this product. It claims to be used as a multipurpose product which can be used as a face wash, scrub, mask or even as a spot treatment.

For my skin, I’ve always preferred this product as a spot treatment especially when my acne is inflamed or is filled with pus. Now how I use this, I take it as a small amount and put it on wherever I’m suffering from acne and I keep it there for about 30-40 min. After that when it gets completely dried, I wash it off. With its usage I’ve always felt the reduction of my acne. It definitely works for my adult cystic acne.

Recommended for Cystic Acne: Yes

The only negative point I found is that it has so many chemicals but I never expected for it to be natural as my stubborn acne rarely gets treated with natural treatments but there are some  exception for that I’ll do another post some day.

Thank you guys for reading it.

 

Trapped Soul 🖤

The girl she once was;
Carefree and untroubled.
The world she was never aware of; who would have thought that she will lose her innocence just when she’ll grow up.

The eyes that once dreamt of achieving the best;
those am now shed tears for her own dearest.

Her inner child would scream out of her lungs, only to get people hear her;
But who knew that She would be mute for other people.

Even if she would want to give her best;
Her efforts didn’t matter with the result not going as per her plan.

The girl she once was;
Cheerful and social.
Oh How she got hurt when she started seeing the true colours of her friends.

She would help people whenever she could;
Yet when she was in need, Nobody would help even if they could.

How cruel the world is? She would think.
I was better being ignorant, she interlinked.
For her own was simple a fantasy where she had wings whenever she could fly.
Now she knew about the reality, her wings and her hope got stewed up in a blink.

The girl she once was;
Happy and full of life.
Now she is simply trying to live.
For her voice no longer reaches people, neither her cries for help.
She simply became an animal being caged forever in her own heart.

Thank you for reading!